And no, this post has NOTHING to do with
physical fitness, so stick with me, please!
Several months ago, a friend posted somewhere
online that her daughter's pre-school was having a cultural celebration day and
each child was supposed to bring a food item that represented their cultural
heritage. My friend, raised in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints
in Utah, determined that her daughter would celebrate her religious culture
side by bringing a green jello dish. Because nothing screams stereotypical
Mormon than a great green jello salad, right? ;-) I thought this was a cute
idea for a pre-schooler to do a little missionary work. I have no idea how in
the world Jello became synonymous with Mormon, but somewhere along the lines,
we've all heard it.
But that got me thinking. A LOT of times, we
pour Jello into molds. In those cases, our purpose is to have the jello come
out looking a specific way and by a certain way, I mean “a perfect imitation of
the mold.” Even if we're not intending on the jello to come out and be a
specific shape from the mold, it does form to whatever container we pour it
into to set. And a LOT of times, we tend to try to put ourselves and even other people into molds. Our
minds love to categorize. It's not always a bad thing, but in some cases, it
doesn't work to our advantage.
Some molds that I can think of are “athletic” I
certainly don’t feel I fit that mold, but I do enjoy a certain few athletic
endeavors, but I certainly am not in
that mold. There is the “musically talented” mold, oh, I do fit this one, and I love it! There’s a “crunchy, granola” mold
(which has several different definitions, but the one I am familiar with is a
person who prefers natural remedies and tries to eat organic while also being
“green”), the “rich” mold, the “book nerd” mold (I definitely belong here too),
there are religion based “molds” too. We all probably have, based on personal
experience, a molded image that comes to mind when you think of: Jehovah’s
Witnesses, LDS/Mormons, Orthodox Jews, Mennonites, Amish, Southern Baptist,
Hindu, Islam. Whether or not our views on ANY mold are correct is up for grabs.
And whatever our perceptions are, at least a tiny bit is probably based on
truth. But for now, I’m going to specifically address the topic of fitting into
the “LDS mold.”
People who don’t know me very well, and even
some who do would probably say that I
fit the mold of a faithful member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day
Saints. But here's a secret: I don't FEEL like I fit
into the LDS mold. I never have. Sometimes I feel isolated because I feel
like instead of coming out of the mold, I come out like most of my attempts at
jello do: a big blob with no definition of shape. As a child and teen, I
was shunned by many of my peers because I was "too good" for them. A
"goodie-two shoes". I never understood why a group of kids going to a
church that taught that we should be good and that it would
bring happiness and
blessings to be good, would think that being good
was undesirable. But I grew up with many. I never got it. Those kids didn't fit MY idea of the LDS mold. As an adult, I converse with friends of the same faith and realize that what I personally
believe about any given subject doesn't always match what they believe about the same subject. Those people don't fit MY idea of the
mold! But wait, I thought the LDS Church
preached uniformity?! How come there
isn't a large group of people who FIT THE MOLD HERE?! Certainly, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints does
uphold a certain degree of uniformity, but there is a LOT of room for
people-and even congregations as a whole to be unique and different. Remember
if you MUST use a mold, the best ones are flexible (silicone vs. metal anyone?)
As stated in Handbook 2 Adiminstering in the Church Chapter 17, "Members of the Church live in a wide variety
of political, social, and economic conditions. Wards and branches also vary in
size and leadership resources. These conditions may require local leaders to
adapt some Church programs. Such adaptations typically affect the auxiliaries,
leadership meetings, and activity programs. The guidelines in this chapter are
intended to help priesthood leaders determine which adaptations may be
appropriate and which are not." https://www.lds.org/handbook/handbook-2-administering-the-church/uniformity-and-adaptation?lang=eng
Because here's another secret: The LDS "mold" is a figment of the imagination. Notice I said that I had a specific idea of what the mold was,
but couldn’t find many people who met it. Because more specifically, the
"mold" is most likely everything you think
you're NOT but feel you SHOULD be. In
other words, your perception of the mold is different from MY perception of the
mold, and quite possibly holding you back from being your best self. Because
that mold only reflects back your weaknesses, it doesn't necessarily inspire
you to do better. To illustrate this point, I'm going to list whatever comes to
mind when I try to picture what I USED to believe the Ideal LDS Woman's Mold
was: (in no particular order)
Bakes bread
Has 1 year + food storage for entire family
Has at least 3 month's salary saved up in case
of a "rainy day"
Teaches amazing FHE lessons complete with
activity and treat that are planned more than 10 minutes in advance
Looks perfectly put together-hair and make up
done every day, even if just going to the store
Arrives to church at LEAST 5 minutes early. Her
kids sit quietly for the WHOLE duration of sacrament meeting
Home schools. Or talks about how she's going to
home school one day. If she doesn’t home school, she volunteers. A lot.
She’s probably running for PTO president.
Exercises enough to stay healthy and fit
Cooks 3 hot meals a day-that don't come from a
box, and maybe only a few cans (because you HAVE to rotate that food storage,
ya know!)
Keeps an immaculately clean house
Reads scriptures every day
Doesn't forget morning prayers
Does her visiting teaching within the first 2
weeks of the month
Bakes cookies for her husband's home teaching
families
Has musical talent
Has Pinterest worthy crafting skills-WITHOUT
having to go to Pinterest
Magnifies her callings in her ward
Stays at home-and LOVES it-EVERY SINGLE MINUTE
OF IT
NEVER swears
Blogs consistently
Plans wholesome recreational activities for her
family
Has memorized The Family, A Proclamation to the
World
Sews
Makes hair bows for her girls
Ok, I think you get the picture here. I could go
on. The point is, when I look at ALL those things together, they're so
overwhelming that it just reeks of "just give up you'll never get
there". Let’s get things straight. NONE of those things on the list are
bad in any way. Many of them are awesome, and some extremely important! The lie
is that in order to “fit in” you have to be able to check off all of those things before becoming
truly acceptable in the eyes of everyone else in the religion, including
yourself. The even BIGGER lie we tell ourselves is that everyone else has accomplished this list. Or whatever YOUR list is.
So, how to we break out of the mold, or rather
the IDEA that a mold even exists? It's going against human nature, or the
natural man as Mosiah (3:19)
put it, to do so. In the movie "Get Smart" with Anne Hathaway and
Steve Carell, they are portraying secret agents. Anne's character spots a large
middle-eastern man wearing a turban in the back of a plane they are on and
reports to Steve that there is a "bad man" in the back. Steve accuses
her of "profiling" and they are professionally obligated not to do it.
When he spots the same man in question his jerk response is something to the
effect of "Oh that is a REALLY bad man! Wait, no that's profiling and I'll
have nothing to do with it!" Which is what we need to do. As soon as we
catch ourselves shoving ourselves or anyone else for that matter into a mold,
apply Elder Uchtdorf's policy of "Stop it!" Even though he was
referring to judging people, isn't it a form of judging when we unfairly put
ourselves and others into a mold that doesn't exist? You can read his full
address here.
It is true that a vast majority if LDS women
hold the same basic set of doctrines and teachings dear and apply them to their
lives. And because of this, we do seem to all come from the same mold, the mold
of modest dressing, family driven, community conscious, charity giving women.
But being a woman in this Church is SO much more than any molded perception
ANYONE could possibly have. A friend of mine pointed out that the people she
thinks, “fit the mold” better than her are the people she doesn’t know very
well. As we get to know them better, we have a much more realistic view of
them, that they are actually human with imperfections just like us! Who
probably don’t feel like they fit the mold either-but until getting to know you felt like you fit the mold better than them!
In the Church, the Young Women have 8 Values
that they strive to develop. One of them is Individual Worth. To me this means
that we all have different strengths and weaknesses-that we are all individuals
trying our best to be our best selves. Fitting into a mold was not meant for
us. Abraham 3:23 states “23 And God saw these
souls that they were good, and he stood in the midst of them, and he said:
These I will make my rulers; for he stood among those that were spirits, and he
saw that they were good; and he said unto me: Abraham, thou art one of them;
thou wast achosen before thou wast
born.”
The souls were good. Not identical. And
molds-when all is said and done-are intended to create multiple identical
objects. Please do away with the idea that a mold even exists. Please embrace
the value of Individual Worth for yourself and others. We are all absolutely and irrevocably important
to God’s plan-without having to be popped out of a mold. Leave that for next potluck when you want to bring Jello. :-)
I really enjoyed your thoughts. I thought I'd share a few thoughts I had as I read this. First, I think that the church never expects uniformity. Some people might expect it, but, not the church. So often, when I end up readings some comments of a bitter former mormon, they make all kinds of claims about what the "church expects" or how it suppresses people by forcing them to be a certain way. I think this is all misconception and total misunderstanding. The doctrine of Christ is perfect. God does not change, He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. We, on the other hand are not perfect, and it will be a long time in eternity before we ever reach such a point. I like these two quotes that illustrate the point far better than I could. The first is by C.S. Lewis in one of my favorite books, Mere Christianity, the second is from Priesthood session of conference by President Uchtdorf last year.
ReplyDelete“But you must not imagine that the new men are, in the ordinary sense, all alike. A good deal of what I have been saying in this last book might make you suppose that that was bound to be so. To become new men means losing what we now call ‘ourselves’. Out of our selves, into Christ, we must go. His will is to become ours and we are to think His thoughts, to ‘have the mind of Christ’ as the Bible says. And if Christ is one, and if He is thus to be ‘in’ us all, shall we not be exactly the same? It certainly sounds like it; but in fact it is not so.
“It is difficult here to get a good illustration; because, of course, no other two things are related to each other just as the Creator is related to one of His creatures. But I will try two very imperfect illustrations which may give a hint of the truth. Imagine a lot of people who have always lived in the dark. You come and try to describe to them what light is like. You might tell them that if they come into the light that same light would fall on them all and they would all reflect it and thus become what we call visible. Is it not quite possible that they would imagine that, since they were all receiving the same light, and all reacting to it in the same way (i.e. all reflecting it), they would all look alike? Whereas you and I know that the light will in fact bring out, or show up, how different they are.
“Or again, suppose a person who knew nothing about salt. You give him a pinch to taste and he experiences a particular strong, sharp taste. You then tell him that in your country people use salt in all their cookery. Might he not reply ‘In that case I suppose all your dishes taste exactly the same: because the taste of that stuff you have just given me is so strong that it will kill the taste of everything else.’ But you and I know that the real effect of salt is exactly the opposite. So far from killing the taste of the egg and the tripe and the cabbage, it actually brings it out. They do not show their real taste till you have added the salt. (Of course, as I warned you, this is not really a very good illustration, because you can, after all, kill the other tastes by putting in too much salt, whereas you cannot kill the taste of a human personality by putting in too much Christ. I am doing the best I can.)
“It is something like that with Christ and us. The more we get what we now call ‘ourselves’ out of the way and let Him take us over, the more truly ourselves we become. There is so much of Him that millions and millions of ‘little Christs’, all different, will still be too few to express Him fully.”
C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity (1952; Harper Collins: 2001) 223-225.
“But while the Atonement is meant to help us all become more like Christ, it is not meant to make us all the same. Sometimes we confuse differences in personality with sin. We can even make the mistake of thinking that because someone is different from us, it must mean they are not pleasing to God. This line of thinking leads some to believe that the Church wants to create every member from a single mold—that each one should look, feel, think, and behave like every other. This would contradict the genius of God, who created every man different from his brother, every son different from his father. Even identical twins are not identical in their personalities and spiritual identities.
ReplyDelete“It also contradicts the intent and purpose of the Church of Jesus Christ, which acknowledges and protects the moral agency—with all its far-reaching consequences—of each and every one of God’s children. As disciples of Jesus Christ, we are united in our testimony of the restored gospel and our commitment to keep God’s commandments. But we are diverse in our cultural, social, and political preferences.
“The Church thrives when we take advantage of this diversity and encourage each other to develop and use our talents to lift and strengthen our fellow disciples.” (Dieter F. Uchtdorf, https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2013/04/four-titles?lang=eng)
Beautiful thoughts all around Melinda and James. I have found so much peace in the realization that God never intended for us to be the same! He has given us those attributes and gifts that are needful for us as individuals. This quote from Patricia T. Holland wife of Apostle Elder Jeffrey R. Holland really drives this point home for me.
ReplyDelete"For many years I tried to measure the ofttimes quiet, reflective, thoughtful Pat Holland against the robust, bubbly, talkative, and energetic Jeff Holland and others with like qualities. I have learned through several fatiguing failures that you can’t have joy in being bubbly if you are not a bubbly person. It is a contradiction in terms. I have given up seeing myself as a flawed person because my energy level is lower than Jeff’s, and I don’t talk as much as he does, nor as fast. Giving this up has freed me to embrace and rejoice in my own manner and personality in the measure of my creation. Ironically, that has allowed me to admire and enjoy Jeff’s ebullience even more.
Somewhere, somehow the Lord “blipped the message onto my screen” that my personality was created to fit precisely the mission and talents he gave me. For example, the quieter, calmer talent of playing the piano reveals much about the real Pat Holland. I would never have learned to play the piano if I hadn’t enjoyed the long hours of solitude required for its development. This same principle applies to my love of writing, reading, meditation, and especially teaching and talking with my children. Miraculously, I have found that I have untold abundant sources of energy to be myself. But the moment I indulge in imitation of my neighbor, I feel fractured and fatigued and find myself forever swimming upstream. When we frustrate God’s plan for us, we deprive this world and God’s kingdom of our unique contributions, and a serious schism settles in our soul. God never gave us any task beyond our ability to accomplish it. We just have to be willing to do it our own way. We will always have enough resources for being who we are and what we can become. (LDS Women’s Treasury: Insights and Inspiration for Today’s Woman, p.98)
It is liberating to BE who God made us to be!